[Pray Without Ceasing]

I had to laugh. This isn’t what I’d planned on posting today. In fact, I just wrote this yesterday, so I found it humorous that after my post Step One: Shred the Past, I’d be “Taking out the Trash Talk.” 

Confession

I couldn’t post “Step Two: Get Set” because I suddenly wasn’t feeling set. I didn’t want to be a hypocrite, but I am. Normally I would be beating myself up for not being perfect, but instead, I’m one happy hypocrite. (Lol) Yep, I’m still laughing. I guess this is joyful laughter because I was just so relieved to have my prayers answered so quickly. 

Doubts

I wasn’t doing well. Mentally I was so sure that I was not only doing everything wrong, but I was also seriously doubting my usefulness and sanity.

Really, I was doubting my sanity because there was so much trash talk going on in my head that needed to be taken out. I wasn’t giving it to the Lord. Why? I don’t know. Normally I’d be able to analyze things and come up with an answer, but I can’t find one. I guess this is better than coming up with an excuse.

Pray

I haven’t been praying without ceasing, so the trash talk was building up in my head. This always happens when I either fail to read Scripture or I fail to pray. Infact, the last time this happened it was because I ended up off track with my reading. This is why I’m such a hypocrite: I do it too! I fail to do what I know I should be doing, yet, I can get frustrated with “difficult” people. (Okay, now I’m starting to feel the guilt. This is good. This will fix me.)

Peace

I’m not laughing anymore, but right now I feel amazingly calm. I’m going to put this behind me too. God mercifully answered my prayer AND I learned a valuable lesson that will go a long way towards curbing my impatience. 

Look and Listen

I don’t know why I delay to pray. However, I really needed a comforting word from God, so much so that I was crying as I asked for this very thing. 

After I prayed I sat at my desk. I recently finished reading through Ecclesiastes. Feeling lead to start reading Ephesians next, my Bible was open to this chapter. I immediately started to feel calm as I read God’s word, but I cried when I received my answer. (I usually do.)

Journaling

Do you Journal? I started doing this several years back. When I read, I write out the Scripture that I’m reading, and as things speak to me I make a note, or I draw a box around the words that speak the loudest. For example: In Ephesians it reads,”You heard the true teaching–the good news about your salvation. When you heard it you believed. (Ephesians 1:13)

I doubt my usefulness, but I forget that it only takes someone hearing the truth for them to believe. Why do I doubt? I’m doing what I’m supposed to be doing. (Ephesians 1:1) The truth sets people free. 

Praise to His Glory

That wasn’t all. Before these words, I’d read this: And God is the One who makes everything agree with what He decides and wants. (Ephesians 1:11) This is hugely comforting. A little further on I read: this will bring full freedom to the people who belong to God, to bring praise to God’s glory. (Ephesians 1:14)

It was after these last words that I wrote this down in my journal:

“Note to Self: Don’t doubt what your heart desires. God gives you these desires. He makes everything agree with what He decides and wants, to bring praise to His glory.”

Love and Grace

The things that I really want (to love others, and for those who don’t know God to know Him) line up with God’s will. He has given us these strong desires. (Psalm 37:5) They are the things that He wanted and planned before the world was made (Ephesians 1:7-10 ; Ephesians 1:3-6 ) because of His wonderful love and grace. (Ephesians 1:5-7)

We speak and write so that people will hear, believe and receive what they need. At the same time He gives us exactly what we need, such as, prompting me to read Ephesians and this trash talk analogy. Nevertheless, we’re easily fooled into thinking that our words fall on deaf ears, but this isn’t the case. 

“The hearing ear and the seeing eye, the Lord has made them both.”–Proverbs 20:12

If you have a tendency to doubt your usefulness, too, let’s make a pact to pray without ceasing and then look and listen as we open Scripture before us. God is merciful and His word is powerful. (Hebrews 4:12 ) Taking things to Jesus does clear out all the trash talk that piles up in our heads. 

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” –Matthew 11:28-30

27 thoughts on “Take Out the Trash Talk

  1. Tina, sis, I love you. This is such an incredible post. That inner trash talk left unchecked can take us places we never wanted to be. I often find myself in deep depression – only to trace it back to believing yet another lie. (sigh) I see that you can probably relate. Sometimes our enemy is more cunning than we could have imagined.

    Pray without ceasing – amen. Needed this reminder today!

    Please keep writing. You are brilliantly chosen for this time and purpose. Sharing your heart is touching lives more than you realize. I fully related to what you shared and I know many many others do too. Praying the Lord continues to reveal where you and all of us have believed wrong, stinking thinking so that we truly can GET RID of the trash! My my, what peace is ours in Jesus when we do.

    All My Love To You,
    Holly 💕

    1. Thank you so much! You made me cry… That “trash talk” was starting up again. I’m always convinced that I’m just an awkward, clueless, bumbling…Yeah… I’ll stop there. We’re all walking on shadowfeet, right. Some seasons are just tougher than others…growing seasons (humbling seasons) can be tough. Okay, now I’m just feeling awkward again. I see that you have a cat care blog. I will definitely be giving you a follow, Holly. Thanks for the love. ❤ ❤ ❤ Back at ya.

  2. I’ve journaled on and off but I always fall off the boat. But if I neglect to spend time with the Lord, I definitely notice a difference in myself. Time with Him makes everything else better. Thanks Tina!

    1. Well, God has really helped me to stay on track with journaling. Because I have Seasonal Affective Disorder, I have to use a S.A.D. light daily. I do my Bible reading while I’m doing my light therapy. I guess I’m getting double the light therapy, but I really enjoy that time. So much so, that I have a hard time not studying too much. So God has really given me a joy and hunger for His word. Good definitely can come out of our ailments. “…and In Your faithfulness You have afflicted me.” Psalm 119:75 He is definitely a good God. 😊

      1. The Bible reading and light therapy together sound peaceful. Thanks for the verse. He is good to us. I’m in awe of His faithfulness and provision. 😊

  3. Amen!! I always need all God and no trash and I get that peaceful feeling when I stay in the word…I like the idea of writing out scripture, I do that some but should devote a journal book to it! Thanks for an important heartfelt post!! Glad to have you back lady!!❤️

    1. For me, journalling has been amazing. I retain so much more of what I’m reading, and I examine things more closely. It slows your reading down, but this is a good thing. Thanks Ali! It’s good to be back. Love you. ❤

      1. I want to be retaining more, I often feel like I’m guilty of doing the whole checklist thing and then on to the next goal…I don’t want to operate that way..I NEED to slow down my reading among many other self-made expectations!!
        Love you too!! Thanks for this helpful insight!!

      2. You have a lot on your plate, don’t you? It’s much more difficult to slow down when you have a long checklist! I can do the same thing, but I imagine it’s more difficult for you because you’re also raising kids. That must keep you hopping! 😊

      3. It’s actually obnoxious and seriously overwhelms me…I’m pretty passionate about everything I do so it makes it extremely challenging to know what to cut out but I know that it’s necessary it’s just a matter of figuring it out.

      4. Yes, I understand passionate! I use that word to describe myself too. Actually, I used it on a goofy pic of myself recently. Andrew looked at me, wide eyed, and said, “You’ve gone dark side.” lol. I don’t know if you pay much attention to Star Wars, but the Jedi Code says that there is no passion. While the Sith sort of thrives on passion. I just laughed and said, it’s godly passion not worldly passion. I’m thinking of doing a post on this. Long story short, it’s good that you’re passionate. It’s the sign of a born leader, but like Peter we need to be reigned in. MacArthur has a great blog series on Peter. It’s so worth making time to read it.

        https://www.gty.org/library/blog/B170724

        There are 6 posts in this series. You just have to scroll to the bottom of each post and click next. It takes a while to read through them, but it’s so good. I’m going to print the series and read it with Andrew.

  4. I really like the title. I can relate to your content. One of the things I am working on regarding the trash talk that goes on in my head is shifting my perception. When I embrace the mentality of being a victim, I become bitter and complain. But when I understand that God uses all things to work together for my good (Romans 8:28) my mentality shifts from being a victim to a victor.

  5. I have been keeping a journal for several years, it helps me to focus. It is so true that scripture or a devotional can clear out the “trash” and give us hope and direction. – Jeanne

    1. Thanks for leaving your name, Jeanne. I kept thinking, “Ugh, I can’t remember her name!” Lol. I do like to use people’s names. 😊 I should remember it now. 😀

  6. Either you are not a hypocrite or perhaps we are all hypocrites. None of us are prefect and cannot always remember to do the right thing. It takes practice. We have to learn new behaviors, as we turn away from the old towards the new. We are all learning along the way. Which is one of the reasons why we blog, because it helps us process things.

    1. Yeah, actually in one of my drafts I wrote, “I don’t know if I’ve ever written this before, but I’m such a hypocrite. Of course this is likely true of all of us, but still, it’s a great confession.” Lol.

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