Part 1 can be found right here.
[Change your hearts]
As I was going over every possible place that mold could be hidden from sight, I thought of Laura Story’s song “Blessings.” Though I initially reacted with panic at the sight of mold, it turned out to be a huge blessing.
August, September and October were tough months, and November wasn’t starting any better. Andrew and I barely got out of the house. Can you blame me for freaking out when I was suddenly faced with a hazard that could further endanger our health? Many many thoughts went through my head.
Nevertheless, when things started to fall into place with nothing more than trusting it to God, I began to breathe again. I also gained enough energy to start tackling the job. I was enjoying it too. I love throwing things away. (Things, not people…things.)
Andrew, however, is very sentimental, so he doesn’t appreciate seeing anything go out the door. I’m sentimental too, but most of what I threw out was cardboard boxes, paper, and old things that we weren’t using, didn’t need and likely would never use. I was trying to declutter as I sanatized our home.
(All pics in this post courtesy of Pixabay.com)
A Sentimental Loss
My heart sank, though, as I came across one particular item that was covered in mold. It was this old cassette case which contained some tapes and love letters that I’d given Andrew while we were dating. It had to be thrown out, or at least I thought it did. Now, I wonder if I could have saved any of it, but I was overwhelmed when I got started and I wanted to get rid of anything that could further complicate our health problems.
How was I going to break this news to my husband? (I didn’t want to do it!) I knew he would be so disappointed, so I gathered my thoughts. When I told him, I reminded him that this was loves beginnings, and that what we have, now, is worth so much more because we have real love: a love that endures all things. I wanted him to be comforted. I wanted him to know that he wasn’t losing anything important.
His response to me was, but what if you die? What will I have to remember you by? (He’s always worried about me dying.) I told him that he would have plenty to remember me by, and then I reinforced what I’d just said to him.
Remembering Loves Beginnings
Love’s beginnings are wonderful, and we should remember them because in the beginning you’re so head over heels that you don’t want to spend even one moment apart. You also can’t stop talking about your love, so much so that people can get tired of hearing about him/her. However, over time this changes. Love can get too comfortable, or worse you no longer care for the spouse you married.
People don’t fall out of love, they slowly slide out of it. They find fault with their mate who originally could do no wrong, then apathy sets in and their eyes start to wander. Or life gets hard and someone sweet talks you away from your spouse by making the grass sound greener on the other side. (Proverbs 7:21-23) Proverbs warns against the adulterous women, but it’s not only women who wreck homes, men are as guilty of pulling women away from their husbands and the truth. (2 Timothy 3:1-9)
Before You Fell
The same thing can happen to our relationship with the Lord. In the beginning everything is brand new and the adventure is right in front of us. We dig into Scripture because we want to know more. Just as we can’t get enough of the one who’s won our heart, we are interested in getting to know Jesus, and we want to tell anyone who will listen that we’ve given our heart to the Lord. At least, it should be this way. My mentor said that when he came to Christ He didn’t grow right away. It took some major events in his life to open his eyes to the truth.
Furthermore, we can be pulled away from our first love by the love of other things, or as the journey gets bumpy the troubles themselves can cause us to fall away. (Matthew 13:18-23) Jesus cautions us to remember where we were before we fell. (Revelation 2:4-5)
When you’re doing a thorough cleaning, you enviably come across things that spark memories. You also find things that you thought you had lost. I shed a tear or two as I came across such items.
Does your relationship with Jesus ever make you cry? It’s a good indicator of a soft heart towards Him.
God gives us plenty of reminders that He’s still there and that His love for us will never change. The adventure is always right before us, therefore, may we remember the love we had in the beginning, praying for the Lord’s help to keep our flames for Him (and our spouses) burning brightly.
If your flame isn’t burning, perhaps you didn’t forget the love you had, maybe, as My Mentor discovered, you haven’t grown because you don’t have an established root in Jesus. (Matthew 13:20-21) Now is as good a time as ever to get to know Him. There’s a danger in forgeting our first love. (It leads to death), but there is a blessing for those who abide in Jesus. Those who overcome shall see heaven.
I highly recommend bookmarking and listening to John MacArthur’s sermon on the church at Ephesus here
“But I have this against you: You have left the love you had in the beginning. So remember where you were before you fell. Change your hearts and do what you did at first. If you do not change, I will come to you and will take away your lampstand from its place.” –Revelation 2:4-5(NCV)
I had to add this song. This one always makes me cry. Andrew and I saw “Up” on one of Anniversaries. It’s so us. Yeah…I can’t watch this video and hear this song without crying. 😢