[Peace! Be Still!]
Why does this happen? One day I’m hopeful and peaceful. Then I wake up the next day melancholy, and it’s not long before my mind is so full of questions. Soon Yesterday’s calm is washed away, and the wind and waves begin to rise up within me.
There are things that are not going as I’d hoped or prayed they would. (And even believed they would.) From all that I’ve experienced, read, or heard through song, this is all pretty normal. I guess everyone hits this wall of disappointment, confusion and inner turmoil at some point on their journey.
This isn’t about our health or circumstances. There are several miracles that I’ve been praying for, and I was positive that I’d see mountains move.
Instead of moving, one particular mountain has not only remained unmovable, but it feels as if everyone has given up believing that faith can move mountains. Suddenly I was faced with this storm of emotions. Did I misunderstand something? I don’t want to give up and move on too!
I was standing my ground, sure that I’d see God do His thing. I believe in the power of God, so I was waiting for that miracle. I still believe in miracles. I’m way too stubborn to believe otherwise, and I guess this is what really caused me to become so distraught and saddened
He Can Do it Again…
As Andrew and I we’re driving home from an appointment, the song “Do it again” by Elevation Worship was playing on the radio. This song was really bothering me as I was trying to explain my feelings to Andrew. I said to him, “If things are really over, then why is God playing this song!!!!? I don’t remember his response, likely because his words weren’t comforting me, or I wasn’t hearing what he was saying.
However, later we spoke some more. That’s when I asked him, “Am I supposed to stop believing in this miracle too!?” He told me, “No, keep believing,” and then he gave me reasons to believe that this isn’t case closed. It brought me hope, and encouraged me. Do you know how comforting it is when someone believes with you?
So Many Questions, Not Enough Answers
I had other things on my mind as well. Because I was still left with so many questions, I desperately prayed for that comfort from God. It was on Facebook that I received my encouragement, first through a post by For King and Country, and then through one of my “On this Day” posts. This is what For King and Country posted:
“I long so much to make beautiful things. But beautiful things require effort and disappointment and perseverance.” –Vincent Van Gogh
“I love this quote. For so many of us. We want to achieve something great. We want our life to count for something. To make something beautiful. We want our life to matter, and I think for most, were prepared to give great effort and perseverance but we’re not prepared for disappointment. I’m not an expert on matters like these but I will say this, in my life, it’s been the disappointment that I’ve learned the most. Had to lean on God the most. Had to trust in people that love me even if I couldn’t give them anything in return. So today if you’re experiencing a moment of disappointment, allow God to use it. You might very well reflect with great thankfulness for what that disappointment might produce.”
Keen on Memes?
My second encouraging word from God confused the life out of me. I didn’t know what it meant, and I couldn’t remember where this partial quote came from. Suddenly I understood why our buddy, Daryl, was never keen on my memes. Without context this particular quote didn’t say nearly enough.
“Sometimes that mountain you’ve been climbing
Is just a grain of sand.”
What? When I did a Google search I found that it was a Carrie Underwood song called “So Small.” I needed context! It made a big difference. These are the words that really spoke to me:
“It’s so easy to get lost inside a problem that seems so big at the time
It’s like a river that’s so wide it swallows you whole
While you’re sitting around thinking about what you can’t change
And worrying about all the wrong things
Time’s flying by, moving so fast
You better make it count ’cause you can’t get it back
Sometimes that mountain you’ve been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
And what you’ve been out there searching for forever
Is in your hands
Oh, and when you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else seem so small.”
I get it, Lord; stop worrying about all of the problems. Just keep focusing on what really matters (Your amazing love). I need to let go and trust that You’re working it for good.
Thankfully, Jesus still faithfully quiets the wind and waves. ❤ Sometimes He stills that surging sea within with His amazingly comforting love.
Next—>First Things First
“You rule over the surging sea; when its waves mount up, you still them.” –Psalm 89:9
“When Jesus woke up, He rebuked the wind and said to the waves, “Silence! Be still!” Suddenly the wind stopped, and there was a great calm.” –Mark 4:39