May 30, 2019
It’s almost June; the sun is shining and the birds are singing. I should be more thrilled about this.
This one’s going to start off rough, but my goal is to always end on a high note. It’s my life goal too.
A lot has been thrown our families way this season. It’s been a long three years.
Yesterday I spent the day lifting Andrew’s spirits. He recently lost a favorite uncle. Andrew saw Uncle Gerald more like a brother, and this isn’t the first time he’s lost a brother. (His older brother, Darryl, died from injuries sustained in a motorcycle accident. Andrew was 12 when his brother passed away.)
My husband is feeling as if he’s losing everyone.
After failed attempts to try and soothe him with words, I suggested that we play one of the adventure puzzle games he enjoys. I’m not much for computer games myself, but we made it fun. I had him laughing at my silly comments, and before the day was out, his mood had shifted and lifted.
When I headed off to bed, my mood shifted too, but not for the better.
This season has been a constant battle. I’ve been battle weary more times than I care to count. At times I feel as if I have to peel myself up off of the floor. It’s tiring. It’s doubly tiring when fatigue already plagues you.
I remember one day as we ran errands, the song “It’s Not Over Yet” played on the radio. I was having a really rough day. Sometimes when I hit these lows, I don’t want to hear it. I don’t want to be told to pick myself back up! I’m sure that I’ll just be knocked down again, so I really really want a new song. I’m tired of being on repeat.
When I feel this way, I just want to sit this round out.
However, I can’t. I won’t do that to Andrew or anyone else around me. I do have days that put me out of commission, but I have to get back in the fight ASAP. Staying down would only cause more misery, not just for myself, but also for everyone I love.
Keep on Fighting out of the Dark
As I write this, I’m sitting out in the sunshine. My motivation is these lyrics: “Keep on Fighting out of the Dark and into the Light.” This is my message from God.
I’m tired, and feeling beat up, but I’m looking past this trial. I believe in God’s promises; I know that He doesn’t lie. I know that there’s a light at the end of the tunnel, even when I can’t see an end in sight. I still believe that God is fair and merciful; hope hasn’t left me, neither has my Lord. He’s faithful and worthy of my praise.
He’s my encourager, my comforter, and my refuge. I will trust Him, and I won’t back down. He won’t let me… when I am weak, He is strong.
“…[Jesus’] power works best in weak people” –2 Corinthians 12:9(NLV)
Yep, I can relate to the words of this song. Great song choice, Lord. I needed that. Thanks! P.S. I also enjoyed the sunshine and birds today.