Into the Light

May 30, 2019

It’s almost June; the sun is shining and the birds are singing.  I should be more thrilled about this.

This one’s going to start off rough, but my goal is to always end on a high note.  It’s my life goal too.

A lot has been thrown our families way this season.  It’s been a long three years.

Yesterday I spent the day lifting Andrew’s spirits. He recently lost a favorite uncle.  Andrew saw Uncle Gerald more like a brother, and this isn’t the first time he’s lost a brother.  (His older brother, Darryl, died from injuries sustained in a motorcycle accident. Andrew was 12 when his brother passed away.)

My husband is feeling as if he’s losing everyone.

After failed attempts to try and soothe him with words, I suggested that we play one of the adventure puzzle games he enjoys.  I’m not much for computer games myself, but we made it fun. I had him laughing at my silly comments, and before the day was out, his mood had shifted and lifted.

When I headed off to bed, my mood shifted too, but not for the better.

This season has been a constant battle.  I’ve been battle weary more times than I care to count.  At times I feel as if I have to peel myself up off of the floor. It’s tiring.  It’s doubly tiring when fatigue already plagues you.

I remember one day as we ran errands, the song “It’s Not Over Yet” played on the radio.  I was having a really rough day.  Sometimes when I hit these lows, I don’t want to hear it.  I don’t want to be told to pick myself back up!  I’m sure that I’ll just be knocked down again, so I really really want a new song.  I’m tired of being on repeat.

When I feel this way, I just want to sit this round out.

However, I can’t.  I won’t do that to Andrew or anyone else around me.  I do have days that put me out of commission, but I have to get back in the fight ASAP. Staying down would only cause more misery, not just for myself, but also for everyone I love.  

Keep on Fighting out of the Dark

As I write this, I’m sitting out in the sunshine. My motivation is these lyrics: “Keep on Fighting out of the Dark and into the Light.”  This is my message from God.

I’m tired, and feeling beat up, but I’m looking past this trial.  I believe in God’s promises; I know that He doesn’t lie. I know that there’s a light at the end of the tunnel, even when I can’t see an end in sight.  I still believe that God is fair and merciful; hope hasn’t left me, neither has my Lord. He’s faithful and worthy of my praise.

He’s my encourager, my comforter, and my refuge. I will trust Him, and I won’t back down.  He won’t let me… when I am weak, He is strong.

“…[Jesus’] power works best in weak people” –2 Corinthians 12:9(NLV)

Yep, I can relate to the words of this song.  Great song choice, Lord.  I needed that.  Thanks!  P.S. I also enjoyed the sunshine and birds today.

12 Thoughts

  1. We have to remind ourselves of God’s truth through scripture when we feel weary! I’m thankful for your transparent message as I too get down in the dumps more than I care to admit! Love the song you’ve referenced also!!!

  2. Oh my God! I couldn’t hold back the tears from falling while reading this!
    I won’t back down either! 😭 😭God never fails. He is too faithful to fail. Thank you, Tina for this spirit lifting post! God bless you!

    1. I am SO glad it was uplifting! When I sat down to write this I was feeling so warn. I wasn’t even sure what I’d end up with. Thanks so much for your comment. It helps to know that God is using it for good. It really does. You’ve encouraged me this morning. ❤ God bless you too Ime! ❤

      1. You are the best, Tina! Keep allowing God to use you and touch lives on this platform. I’m glad i came across your blog. Blessings!! 🤗 ❤

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