[Why are you so afraid?]
Nothing tests our faith more than when we’re forced to wait, especially in the middle of a storm. When prayers seem to go unanswered, fear and doubt can creep in. We may even wonder if God cares what happens to us.
Jesus disciples wondered too. When Jesus slept, as the wind and waves wildly rocked the boat, they woke Him, asking, “Teacher, don’t you care if we drown?”
“Courage, dear heart.”
–C.S. Lewis, The Voyage of the Dawn Treader
The thing to remember, when going through trials and testing, is that God doesn’t tests us to find out what He needs to know. (He knows our heart and mind.) Testing shows us what we need to know. It shows us whether our faith is genuine. In fact testing means to prove by trial. (1 Peter 1:7) Trials also strengthen our faith.
I find waiting most difficult when it concerns someone that I love.
I do trust God with my mother-in-law (who recently had a heart attack), but I want to understand what’s happening, so I’ve had questions.
Only two days after being released from the hospital my mother-in-law’s blood pressure was high, and she experienced some pain in her arms, so she headed back to the hospital.
They said she was fine. She didn’t have another heart attack, and there wasn’t any damage to her heart. Andrew said something about it being an arterial issue, however this didn’t give me much information.
My dad suggested that if we were concerned we could phone her doctor, but yesterday we both had a peace about things, so this won’t be necessary. Mom’s home again and she’s doing great.
There was also some confusion.
Mom had experienced trouble stringing thoughts together while she was in the hospital. This concerned some of our family. (But she seemed fine when we visited with her.)
Then when she came home, my father-in-law was convinced that she was still confused when she said that she didn’t have a stent put in. Because he was convinced that mom was still confused, he talked with the doctor. The doctor told Dad that she was right: a stent wasn’t needed.
My dad also informed me that it’s perfectly normal to have confusion after a heart attack because the blood isn’t getting to the brain quite as well.
It turned out that Mom wasn’t as confused as Dad thought she was. We do this, though, don’t we? We can jump to conclusions very quickly.
As a follower of Christ, I consider myself very fortunate. I know that God will be in every detail of my life because He cares for me.
Knowing that He’s is in every detail doesn’t mean that life will go as I want it to go. It also doesn’t mean that I won’t experience pain and loss.
What it does mean, however, is that I know God will work all of it for good. (Romans 8:28) This is what it means to have peace that transcends understanding. It guards our hearts and our minds. (Phillipians 4:7)
I do find peace in knowing that God has already worked it all out. I do have a strange sense of peace in the middle of the confusion, and because I do, I want others to have that peace in the middle of their storms as well. His name is Jesus. And he does care about every detail of your life.
“Jesus was in the stern, sleeping on a cushion. The disciples woke Him and said to Him, “Teacher, don’t you care if we drown?” He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, “Quiet! Be still!” Then the wind died down and it was completely calm. He said to His disciples, “Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?” They were terrified and asked each other, “Who is this? Even the wind and the waves obey Him!” –Mark 4:38-41