[He prayed to the Lord who answered him and gave him a miraculous sign]
It’s time to inject some purposeful positivity into “Captain’s Blog!” I’m in a right ready mood, to break the trend of all these woes which have made me feel as if “Captain’s Blog” wasn’t such a great idea.
While I don’t enjoy feeling as though I’m beating a dead horse here, writing through rough patches has always taught me so much. If God can use it, then I’m putting it out there, and if I’m mistaken, well, then I truly am just yammering. Nevertheless, I’m trusting God with this, so onward and upward!
What Is That, Mother?
What is that, Mother?
The eagle, boy!
Proudly careering his course of joy,
Firm, on his own mountain vigour, relying,
Breasting the dark storm, the red bolt defying,
His wing on the wind, and his eye on the sun,
He swerves not a hair, but bears onward, right on:
Boy, may the eagle’s flight ever be thine,
Onward, and upward, and true to the line.
–George Washington Doane 1825–
Although the “flying lessons” aren’t truly over till we’re caught up in the the clouds with Jesus (1 Thessalonians 4:17) It’s been amazing to shift gears and veer away from the wind.
The thing about learning to navigate through rough weather, is that you’re forced to go through the wind and rain; it isn’t so pleasant at the time, but later, it does produce that peace that it should (Hebrews 12:11).
Drawn out of the Nest
Did you know that baby birds aren’t typically pushed out of the nest? (I didn’t!) Like human parents, and even God Himself, the mother bird will slowly draw her babies out of the nest.
Human parents may use a toy or food to garner excitement and motivation. Wanting what the parent has to offer, the child will move towards the object.
With the mother bird, it’s apparently much the same. Baby birds are fed at regular intervals; they learn to expect the mother to return with food to satiate their hunger. The mother bird will stand further and further back to entice her young ones to come out of the nest.
However, it’s been reported, that on occasion a mother bird will be forced to push a baby out of the nest. This is for the good of her young; a bird that doesn’t learn to fly won’t survive; it must leave the nest. Is it any wonder then, that we’re told to seek the Lord? It’s for our own protection. (Isaiah 55:6-9)
Moving Closer to God
Thankfully, when I was encouraged out of my “nest” I did move closer to God, and I am learning to “fly.” Alright, so perhaps sometimes I hit a bit of turbulence, or I come in for a crash landing, but I’ll get the hang of it. Thankfully, those winds of change do come.
Reminders and a Sign
These events occured a couple of Summers ago. At this point in time my health being a constant challenge was weighing heavy on me, more specifically, the chronic fatigue.
Fatigue isn’t just being tired. For me, It’s almost always feeling beat even before my feet hit the floor. When it’s at its worst it can affect me mentally as well.
At times I’ll have bouts of anxiety or jitteriness, ongoing sleep problems and depression. On top of this, Andrew has his own health challenges.
All of this makes our life very unpredictable. Eventually, we both experience days where we really wish that things would let up.
Trying to Figure Things Out
Before I was given my reminders and sign, I was determinedly set on trying to figure out how to improve my health. I wasn’t giving it to God. Instead, I was trying to figure things out on my own.
As I read more about my condition I was trying various different things, such as vitamins and autoimmune diets, and I was set on figuring out all of my food sensitivities. I started to feel better, but just when I thought something was finally working, my body informed me that I was wrong. This was only a temporary reprieve.
Discouraged, I was ready to throw my hands up in the air. This is when I was reminded, one morning, that I don’t receive the things I need because I don’t ask. ‘That’s right! I don’t ask!’ I decided it might be in my best interest to listen to my Lord, and try asking. (Good idea!)
Why hadn’t I been asking? Well, for starters I really haven’t seen too many people healed of their infirmities. I suppose I assumed that God must say, ‘My grace is sufficient for you’ quite often. I was also determined that His grace would be sufficient for me too, but aparently He wants us to keep “bugging” Him. (Luke 11:5-13) It’s not as if He has a limited supply of blessings, so we can ask for more, in fact He even encourages this:
“And Jabez called on the God of Israel saying, “Oh, that You would bless me indeed, and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would be with me, and that You would keep me from evil, that I may not cause pain!” So God granted him what he requested.” — 1 Chronicles 4:10
As my grandpa would have said to his C-B’r buddies: ‘Breaker breaker’ and ‘10-4 good buddy.’ If you aren’t familiar with the lingo, ‘breaker breaker’ is slang for ‘I want to start a transmission with you’ and ‘10-4’ means ‘acknowledged’ or even ‘I hear you loud and clear.’ It can also be used to emphasize agreement. (In others words, to the believer it’s much like saying ‘Amen.’) You could also say, ‘copy that,’ which means ‘I hear you’ or ‘understood’
The Lord was coming in loud and clear as He nudged me to start that transmission with Him, so I acknowledged His ‘Breaker breaker’ with my ‘10-4 good buddy.’
Isn’t it amazingly wonderful that we can be friends with God!? While I’d been asking for some of the things that I needed, asking for help with my health, or for strength even just hadn’t occurred to me.
The Summer day “my” eagle made its appearance, the sky was clear, and the sun was shining, making it a perfect day for a walk. I never used to pray on my walks, and I don’t always, but at some point in time, this too seemed like a good idea.
Right off the bat, I was speaking plainly to God, saying this: ‘Nothing’s working, I can’t figure this out, Lord. I’m so fatigued, and it’s becoming more challenging just to get out and walk. I could really use Your help with this.’
Just as I prayed these last words I heard an eagle’s cry. Searching the sky, I spotted “my eagle” and my mind went immediately to Isaiah 40:31. Looking back, I guess one could say that God’s return transmission was received!
“But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.” –Isaiah 40:31
As I watched “my eagle” soaring above, I thought to myself, ‘That was such a cool reminder!’ However, I wasn’t sure if God had orchestrated this. Had He really provided an eagle at that very moment? Was this just coincidence or wishful thinking?
It felt too “coincidental” to me that just as I was praying for strength, I’d receive a visual reminder to wait on my Father in heaven for that renewing of my strength. It wouldn’t be the first time He’s provided a sign that brought me comfort, peace, and reassurance. I kept walking and praying. I also continued to think about “my” eagle.
At this point in time, I’d been reading through the Bible cover to cover. The Old Testament, in particular, was where I felt I could use so much more understanding. This time through, disappointingly, things weren’t becoming any clearer to me.
Feeling as if I was still missing things was beginning to frustrate and bother me. As I continued my walk, I brought this up with the Lord as well, asking Him to please help me see what I’m just not seeing.
I was now on the home stretch when I suddenly wondered if “my” eagle was still within view. I’d just asked for more help when I lifted my eyes. I was surprised at what I was seeing! It wasn’t an eagle!
Instead, a convocation of eagles now circled the sky just ahead of me! Immediately, I began to count them. When I counted 7 of them, I had no doubt that this was a sign from God. I was also convinced that my original eagle was from Him as well.
“In those days Hezekiah became ill and was at the point of death. He prayed to the LORD, who answered him and gave him a miraculous sign.” — 2 Chronicles 32:24
My smile couldn’t have become any wider. As I walked the rest of the way home I was on cloud nine! If you’d have seen me walking down the street that day, I’m sure you would have thought that I was a girl in love. In fact, I was, and I am! I was thrilled!
My God Will Provide
Believing that God had heard me, I felt that He was reassuring me that He was with me. I was also certain this sign meant that He would provide. My hope soared that day. I’m sure you’ll have no problem understanding why I happily exclaim “My eagle!” whenever I sight one.
Since then, the journey has definitely been interesting, even if health matters are still somewhere up in the air. To tell you the truth, many things are up in the air right now.
Though God hasn’t healed me, He’s strengthened me in other ways and taught me to weather the storms. Does this mean I won’t receive physical healing? I don’t believe this is necessarily the case. I know that God is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him, so I haven’t abandoned my original understanding of healing.
My Two Way Radio
By my Grandpa James
How nice to have a radio, on a cold and blustery night
The magic of it’s static fills my heart with sweet delight
For while T.V. is O.K and playing cards is fine
I’d sooner spend an evening on this old two way of mine.
I think of nights so long ago when I’d stay up real late
I didn’t have a radio so I heard no one go ten-eight
But things are very different now and I really have a ball
Listening to my two way and waiting for a wall.
I know exactly who is home and who is out and why
The kind of rig he’s using and the kind he wouldn’t buy
I know when he is mobile, be it Jim, or Jack, or Joe
I’m up on all the going on, with my two way radio.
I know when there is trouble and I know when there is none
I wouldn’t part with this radio and miss out on all the fun
So, when this old world I leave behind and I am gone to heaven
Please bury me with my old two way, so to friends, I can say ten-seven. (signing off)
“Though I don’t have all the answers, I will trust you just the same” –Lincoln Brewster/While I Wait